Yesterday I was really happy.. Finally u agreed to meet me up.. To be frankly, I had a good time, but I m not sure whether u felt the same way as me. I was not a really interesting person, but how i wish i am.. Just like few years ago, I was considered as an interesting guy to hang out with although I was damn emotional sometimes ..
If u ask me to give myself a score today, i would probably give myself only 30%... I m so failed... These few days i felt so low... just like people around me are so much better than me in every aspect in life. Well, i think i just have to admit that i m really sucks..~ I dun wan to be so pessimistic but i just really dunno what can i do...
I wan to improve my english speaking...What methods is the best for me? Seriously i do not know~~ I wish i could have an intensive training program for me to speak English fluently... In secondary, i never felt my English so insufficient like now... I am sure that this is the worst drawback studying in Chinese Independent School..
During psychology class, everyone can speak out their ideas freely... I wish I could have more courage... and stronger language base... That's remind me of my ex-roommate 'Rave', he is a new-zealand Hong Kist, who is so good in english, and i like his accent so much... Moreover, i heard from so many ppl that they impressed so much by his accent and cuteness. Maybe there are still some people that dun really like him that much, but ... I am soo jealous about him...Haiz, somemore many ppl do admire him so much...
How I wish i were him..
Just like today consumer behaviour discussion, 'I' was being so bossy again that made me really cannot stand this time.. Is like he just simply read out the lecture slide, and asked us to give ideas. Who dunno how to find the relevant slide? every reasonable person DOES!!! He always ask ppl to do things and to contribute more. Does it sound so ironic that u busy with the iPod while we are thinking of the answer? If u really want to be the one who conduct can u actually point out some example or elaborate what u really wan us to do or think? Okay i admit you really did contribute a lot in tutorial activities, but can u dun always be so contradicting that u tell us to focus but u urself playing with iPod 5 seconds later?
If i were Rave, i probably will just be the one who conduct everything... I know I can do it ... But i couldn create the vibe or the "aura" that showed people that i actually can do it n let ppl depend on me...
The only good thing that happened today is I've settled the bill already. I miss Casa Subang...I hope the electricity supply at my place is connected back already. Again, truly sorry to my housemates... I knew u all must be thinking that I'm so irresponsible...I really felt bad and guilty.. RM20 is a lot to some of you i know... But RM100 is a lot to me too... I tried my best to amend my mistake, so can u all try to stand in my position and think too?
You were right again, even if all of my housemates and I are really close friend, but certain rules and regulations that must be made clearly to everyone too. This incident was the best lesson i have learnt tis week. I know i cant escape from my responsibilities... so i just have to face it..
Resolution added: I want to have a perfect English oral skill...
It's 6pm in the evening... have been feeling so sleepy for whole morning ... gonna take a nap now.. bye~ Oh ya...Thanks, Andrew~ You know what i m referring to.. my best brother in monash ever =)
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